Since the last few days, I have been bugged by thoughts of changing the things around me. Everything ranging from my room to the world. As a citizen of an information age, I feel empowered by the amount of freedom and visibility Internet(especially blogs) have given. It might seem childish but its true that I want to voice my opinions on anything that I do not like and I expect to be heard and followed. I want to use the tool of technology that I have been taught to operate. But alas, my thoughts remain with me and there is no effect.
This has put me into an introspective mode. I mean why would one wish to change things and how should one go about it(given that my day-dreams have resulted into nothing for so long)?
The answer to the why part is that change is required for the betterment of the things around. I guess everybody would accept this. Then, I wonder, why is there so much friction when change takes place? I think that it is in large part due to the fact that while striving for some change, we presume that the makers of the present orders were incompetent. The folly here lies in ignoring that our perception of a "better" order might have been the result of some new perspective gained over time.
However, it is not the why that is so disturbing. It is the how? How must one go about changing things? In my endeavor to revolutionize the world I guess I lost the picture close to home. I have started lagging in my project and have become lazy, not doing anything but just thinking(blessed are those who are paid just to think! Oh ya, I'd like to become a prof.). Only recently did it strike me that all that I had to change was me. Only if I could do the things I could perfectly, I would make hell lot of difference. Believe me, I hated when oldies talked like this but somehow now I feel that they were right! I then wonder if extreme egotism is the real form of altruism.
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3 comments:
boy ! you need to slow down a little. Too much thought is dangerous, add to that "little play" it becomes even more dangerous.
To be honest I think when others say to change the world one needs to change oneself, i think the world means change ones idea of changing the world.
When our teachers tell us to "concentrate on your work and the world will become a better itself"
I so feel like asking them whether THEY did their work in their time and if yes, then wheres my better world?
Change exacts a price, so first you must be willing to pay it and know why you are paying it. As an RA, you probably know that documentation for a project statrs late in the game. The mind set takes a lot of effort to change even if the students accept your reasons. At our place, it has now become the norm to expect to start writing documentation as soon as a project starts. It took years to get to that place, first convincing myself it could be done. Hope that helps!
@Ujj
I really don't know how to look at things at this juncture!
@Mahant sir
I think the time students take to accept things is necessry not just for the students. As a teacher, this inertia gives him the time to put things into perspective and maybe(hopefully) a new one at that. I hope I am in that phase of life.
The problem is that I see so many possibilities and so little hope of exploring them that I am really disappointed. But I guess that's what life is about(trade-offs, like in VLSI).
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